This exhibition explores:

acting Neurotic
acting on Passion
acting Selfish
acting uninterested
Anger
appreciating Family and Friends
asking you Why you can’t Treat me better
Asking You Why We are not Together
Asking you why you can’t love me more or why you can’t love me Anymore
asking Too Much
attacking invisible things
avoiding Conflict
avoiding you
becoming violently angry when I see you
being absolute
being Afraid of Disease
being afraid of growing Old and fat
being afraid of Inadvertent or Undesired pregnancy
being afraid of my own Mental Illness
being afraid Of Myself
being agoraphobic
being altruistic
being an asshole
being Angry At God
being apathetic
being a Bitch
being cautious
being Cold
being Confrontational
Being considerate
Being Criticized
being deceptive
being defensive
being Desired
being a Difficult Woman
being disappointed in people
Being Disciplined
being Disgusted with myself
being Dramatic
being egocentric
being emotional
being excited
being extravagant
being an Extremist
being a Failure
being a Fatalist
being Forgiven
being Forsaken
being a Good Listener
being happy
being Hard on Myself
being held
being a Hypochondriac
being In Pain
being invisible
being Immoral
being irresponsible
being lifted up
being lonely
being Lost
being loyal
being manipulative
being a Martyr
being a Masochist
being Modest
being Moral
being mysterious
being Obsessive Compulsive
being an optimist
being quiet
being passive aggressive
being Positive about Absolutely Everything
being a pessimist
being reactionary
being Responsible
being Resurrected
being sad
being scared
being secretive
being Shy
being a Sinner
being a Slut
being sympathetic
being Temperamental
being Unbalanced
being undone
being unreasonable
being Used
being a Victim
being violently annoyed
being Weak
being worried
being wrong
Believing in Things like Love and Loyalty
blaming you for me being the way That I Am
Breaking Hearts
building Relationships that are Self-Serving
calling you an asshole
calling your bluff
Calmness
caring too much
choosing evil over good
choosing him Over You or no one over you
continually pushing you away
convincing myself of Me
convincing you of Me
cursing your name
dealing with Imperative Thinking
defining Needs and Wants
desiring
Despairing
Doing what I am doing only because it is what people are Supposed To Do
dreaming
dreaming about falling
embracing my own Self Destructiveness
encouraging negative feelings in myself
engaging in negative Relationships
examining the Death of a Self
examining the Rebirth of a self
expecting more From You
experiencing death
experiencing joy
Fading away
Failing
fake laughing
fake nice
falling
Falling in Love
Fantasizing
feeling Absent
feeling Alone
feeling Angry at Myself
feeling angry when you look at me
feeling Anonymous
feeling awkward
feeling Bad about almost Everything
feeling betrayed
feeling Completely Unstable
feeling down
feeling Nauseous
feeling Like a Different Person
feeling like I am Helping
feeling like I never really was Innocent
feeling Like you will be the death of me
feeling Lost
feeling Nervous
feeling proud of myself
feeling sorry
feeling superior
feeling that no matter what it is it will never be enough
feeling Tired of Everything In the Entire World
feeling transparent
feeling useless
feeling violently nauseous at the idea of being with anyone who isn’t you
feeling worthless
feeling your absence
feeling your distrust of me
fighting
finding a balance
finding a Cause to support tirelessly
finding Comfort
finding someone who can be supportive of all the things I want for myself
Forgiving
forgiving You before You even say You are sorry
fucking around
fucking up
fury
getting angry over the smallest things and having you point out how unreasonable I am being
Giving In
giving the Wrong Impression
giving up
grief
Guilt
Hating myself
having confidence
having a Heart Broken
having issues
Having a Lover who does not Like to Hug Or Kiss
having someone tell me they Don’t Deserve Me and Wanting to Believe I can Do Better Than This
having a violent reaction
Having you think I am funny when I’m angry
Having Your arm Lie over my Body and feeling like its weight could crush me
hearing him say he does value me
hearing Him Say he would Always love me
hearing him say independent women get into trouble
hearing My Own Voice
hearing voices
Hearing You say my name
helping Others heal
Hiding
Holding on
Holding someone I care about
idealizing me and you
inventing myself for you
keeping Secrets
knowing Everything I Ever Need To Know but still seeking answers
knowing he will Never Love Me Again
knowing Something Is Wrong and wanting it to be fixed
knowing that what I am doing is harmful but not wanting to stop
knowing unconditional love
knowing what you know
keeping it real
laughing deeply
laughing with my friends and wishing you could make me laugh like that too
learning
leaving before you wake up
leaving it At That
letting my body heal
letting you manipulate my feelings
Letting Someone treat Me Poorly
listening to a conversation about self depravation and feeling like an asshole for questioning the validity of it
living vicariously
looking up
Losing A Best Friend not by Death or Distance but By Choice
losing confidence
losing energy
Losing Faith
losing focus
losing an identity and constructing a new one
losing my appetite
losing the willpower to remove Myself from This Unattractive Situation
Loss
Loving
Lying
maintaining my sense of spirituality
making decisions without you
making others mad at me
making vast attempts at Self-Improvement
making You Mad At Me
manifesting my own Destiny
misplacing blame
missing the life We had Together
missing you
negotiating my ill will towards you
Not being Able to admit to myself What is Happening
Not Being Afraid Of Anything Ever Again
not being Friends anymore
not having faith in People
not knowing How to Say No
not knowing how to tell you
not knowing The How Or Why
not knowing what to do in an emergency
not knowing what to say or do
not knowing When to Say No
not knowing When to Stop
not needing affection
noticing your absence
not letting Him Treat Me This Way Anymore
not letting you smile your way back into my life
not trusting You
not wanting to see you ever again
not Wanting to Be here Anymore
not wanting to do anything ever again
obsessing over the Idea of You caring for me
practicing self-control
Pretending everything is fine
Pretending Like We’re Not Lovers
Pretending That We’re Friends
Pretending that my disorders are evolutionary choices
prioritizing
Pushing You away
Rage
Regret
Remembering goodness
remembering that I am Not In Love With You
remembering the way We Loved each other and forgetting Everything Else
remembering when I am mad at you
reminding myself What I Want
reminding myself what I need
relaxing
resisting the temptation
resolving Never To Stop
Running Away
sadness
saying goodbye forever
saying it to your face
saying I Don’t Love You Anymore
saying Never
saying no
saying sorry
saying sorry without meaning it
saying the Wrong Thing
saying yes
Screaming Inside but never Out-Loud
seeking answers
seeking comfort
seeking Help
seeking love in a Loveless Relationship
seeking peacefulness
seeking Retribution
seeking understanding
Self-Destructing
Shouting
smiling Uncomfortably
staying the Same
stress
swearing
taking care of myself
taking example from others
taking it to heart
talking
Talking to Myself
telling my secrets to plants and animals because their voices don’t carry
telling the Awful Truth
telling you I don’t want to fight anymore
telling you I am so tired of having the same argument again and again with no resolution
Telling You I feel that way Too
telling you I want More
testing my love for you
Thinking About How I could Contribute to the Betterment of the World
Thinking About You
Thinking you Don’t Actually Exist
throwing a fit
trying to Bullshit my way through this conversation
trying to convince myself All the reasons you Are Worth my Time
trying to tell you how I feel
Using People
Vowing to Fast Until He Loves Me Again
waiting for him to Come Home
waiting for you to Tell me you Made a mistake and You want to Take it all Back
Waking Up Angry
wanting to Hear You Say it First
wanting Justification
wanting to learn more
wanting More for Myself but thinking I don’t deserve it
wanting someone to take care of me
wanting to disappear
wanting to tell you but not saying anything
wanting to throw down and punch you in the throat
Wanting to Vomit on your Shoes because I Hate you
Wanting to Vomit when you Look at me That Way
wanting you to be here and having you Want to be here
Wanting you to Change but not wanting to have to be the One to Change you
Wanting you to see what I see
Wanting you to want the same things
wanting You to Love me
watching you disrespect me
watching you dress in the Morning
wishing I could go back to Innocence
wishing it could all end
wishing we had never met
wishing you can Take It All Back
wondering How Long this is Going To Last
wondering how to take the next step
wondering what the hell is going on
wondering what the hell I am doing with my life
Wondering Why It Has To Be So Fucking Hard